Pages of my life.

2012-02-01T06:43:00.002+08:00

I'm slowly letting the heavy burden in my heart go one by one

Feel like I've grown up and experienced the spice of life.

My soul feels so much lighter (:

Nobody will understand this but Hi me, myself and I.

Know that I'm really proud of you.

Always remember how strong you stood against the tsunami.

Nothing takes away the past like the future.

If you want to control your past,

the only way is to control your present.

What's with this happiness I'm feeling now?

I want to keep this feeling (:

2011-12-27T10:44:00.002+08:00

Best days of 2011

1. Diabolo camp in KL

2. COR'11 Vietnam trip

3. Meeting our foreign artistes (ie: Marvin, Jennifer, Shamir)

4. Days when grandma stayed our house

2012. 勇战！

字典里没有放弃两个字！

2011-12-14T00:09:00.002+08:00

You're good to go.

The place is vacant.

All I want now is just life.

2011-12-06T16:13:00.002+08:00

Personally,

life is a lot about meeting the right people.

Feeding you the right vibes

and beating the shit out of you when there is a need to.

People talk about going back to the past.

No way but yes, I do feel like too.

However, we'll never be the same.

Things will never be.

That's a fact. Reality even if you go back to the past.

Totally slap in the face.

So it's wisest to keep the best memories and bring them to the future.

***

2011 is going to end soon.

Just. Like. That.

= Nothing big accomplished.

One year of my life wasted.

That's 31 536 000 seconds wasted.

Oh.my.god.

2011-10-25T00:45:00.002+08:00

This man here.

His name's Hoya (Ho won) from Infinite

Nope, he's not exceptionally good looking or what.

But. He's a guy whom I admire a lot.

A man who bravely seek to realise his dream.

A man who's all rounder in an idol group.

A man who looks like he wants to own the stage every time he performs.

A man who doesn't force himself to do Aegyo because he has to.

There's just something about this man.

Not as an idol but a man.

I find him charismatic and mature in a way.

Same age, but feels as if he has many years of life experience.

As if he's the kind of man you can count on

to give you endless inspiration. Hm

Not sure why.

But I'm glad such man exists.

2011-09-15T23:55:00.002+08:00

I wish for a traveller boyfriend.

I'll play my favourite playlist &

we will scale the mountains,

explore the oceans,

live that moment

inspiring people and get inspired.

(L)

2011-09-10T22:54:00.002+08:00

See, haha.

now I don't believe your words alr

since it no longer makes me feel good amidst these crazy times

Lawl.

I'm sorry but I know I'm a bitch. Aw.

But yknow why?

You know why. I do too.

You're not sincere at all.

You know what I can do for somebody who's precious to me.

but wait, what have you done for me?

Stop being swallow minded,

I'd rather spend my whole life waiting for the right person

who'll cherish and protect this strong good heart of mine

then make another mistake thinking

"O, I have somebody to hold on to" then goes "O, fuck you."

Bless you very very much.

2011-09-05T00:30:00.002+08:00

"Don't forget I love you and take care of yourself"

Truth or Lie?

I certainly believe it's the truth for now because it makes me happy amongst this fucking busy period (:

Only for now, dude. Because I say so. lol

2011-08-29T01:00:00.000+08:00

I am my own star.

Will love fall again like a shooting star?

Surprise me (:

2011-08-09T13:07:00.002+08:00

I don't give a fuck what you think of me anymore

neither do I give a shit to you.

This is seriously it.

I HAVE ENOUGH.

Don't think I'll follow your footsteps.

I don't sacrifice and stay silent for shit, screwing my own life

like you did.

I'm going to deal with it even if it kills me.

2011-08-04T15:43:00.001+08:00

Get this clear:

I DON'T SPOON FEED,

NEITHER DO I BABYSIT.

Fy'all, seriously.

2011-07-24T00:47:00.002+08:00

I can say I've finally let go.

All thanks to Madeline & Xyn.

One kicked my ass, the other helped me to find the 'way'

For 5 years, I'm in denial.

For 5 years, I lied to myself & blamed everything on you.

For 5 years, I'm being stubborn.

For 5 years, I've been escaping from the truth.

The truth that I'm the creator of our ending.

I'm sorry.

Now I realize, now I'm brave enough to accept this fact.

I wish you happiness. I wish I find mine one day too (:

I have to let go. & I finally did. (:

***

However now,

I wish to escape to mountain tops where no one can see me when I frown in my deep thoughts,

where my brain can stay quiet & find the answers to my questions.

: whatdoIwantinlife?Isitresponsibilityormyweaknessorenjoyment?shouldihopeorletthedevilinmerule?whatwouldmentordoifhe'sinmyshoes?whatcanidotoeaseherpain?tochangethekarmaofthisfamily?aminotdoingenough?whatkindofpersonami?howaboutthecontract?andthelistrunson..

omfg, I'm just fuck'in myself.

2011-07-06T22:24:00.003+08:00

I wish the bus ride never end,

I wish the music never stop.

Because the duration of the bus ride,

is the number of times I can put the song on replay.

& the length of the song,

is the moment where I can devote all my thoughts on you.

I wish I could ride on,

I wish I could continue to just think about you,

& nothing else.

Nothing about reality..

2011-07-04T10:26:00.002+08:00

Dear music, you're such a wonderful thing.

You're like an angel that speaks the hearts of many.

You're like the bridge that connects many hearts that are drowning in the same feeling.

G.O's "Even in my dreams"

just pierce through my heart.

Indeed, it's all about wanting to love a former lover even if it's in the dreams.

& surprisingly, we know it can only happen in our dreams.

But I feel happy just to know that,

I love the freedom I have now, I love the freedom to love whoever I want,

in whichever way I feel like.

This is only because I know this person is definitely worth me remembering

& continue loving, even in my dreams.

Nobody has to care or know.

It's been 4 years, going 5, every bits of memory with you I still remember.

Innocent and sincere.

Even though I tried to move on to other relationships, but god, you're just irreplaceable.

Plus, these relationships are so tough to handle and commit.

So, I guess I should face it. You're gone and you're irreplaceable

and stop wasting everyone's time trying to 'forget' you or 'love' another.

I know you've moved on, with a girl whom I am very sure will bring you happiness.

But this memory and feeling is mine to keep.

I am just going to remain so silly.

Because I feel blissful to be like this.

Because I can't,

& I won't let you; us go.

2011-07-01T23:57:00.002+08:00

I wish so much, for you to be by my side this time.

To walk this madness, I've created myself, with me.

At least till then.

The 'You' who's long gone in reality,

but not in ideal.

I know.

But I'll carry your words, your wish.

Push on and overcome every weakness and every obstacles.

Please watch over me in my wonderland.

At least do this much for me,

for the one who's been lingering for nothing.

2011-06-30T23:46:00.002+08:00

I wonder if there's a chance when I'll bump into you next weekend.

If we do, how'd we react?

What will we think?

What will you be thinking?

If I could have one moment, I'd like to hear what you have to say.

Ofuggggggggg, what am I to do. My heart has stayed still.

2011-06-30T00:17:00.002+08:00

It's hard & I know I'll constantly struggle with myself

But,

I must still learn to let go.

2011-06-27T17:49:00.001+08:00

I can only smile thinking.

Do I look like I give a shit?

2011-06-11T21:47:00.002+08:00

How much do you think I even care now? A lot?

You must be naive.

How much do you think I need you now?

Don't be stupid. I'm grown up.

How much do you think I give a damn about your fucking attitude?

Just as much as this one pathetic blog post.

"So raise your glass if you're wrong,

in all the right ways."

- Raise my glass IN YOUR FACE -

You've made me realise something.

& I think I must start planning how I want my life to be.

2011-06-02T03:04:00.003+08:00

Awesome past few days.

Seniors camp, tuition, contract meeting, choreography sessions and rehearsals.

What's else could I ask for?

Okay . wait, maybe money .

Lol.

& one more thing,

for people who are suppose to be matured given their age to be matured enough to take charge of their decisions and see it through till t end.

Because hello, our paths are intertwined together.

So I have no intention for you build a super big obstacle when our paths cross okay .

There's no way I'll let you waste my time.

I'll do anything to destroy that obstacle and move on my path.

When I say anything, I mean it.

Don't try me. It's good for yourself too.

They can put me down for all I care.

Put me down a million times, I'll stand up the million and oneth time.

2011-05-29T01:41:00.002+08:00

Tonight,

I have a gazillion thoughts on my mind again.

I wondered.

Hm.

What's the main reason I'm fond of being busy?

What's my main reason for helping people?

What're the small tiny reasonings behind each of my actions?

After a short moment with myself

I fear the worst.

& I hope,

it isn't true.

There's no definite truth

But I'm going to hold on to the belief that it ain't true.

If not, I'll be fully submerged in self pity.

& that's the last I want to see of myself.

2011-05-15T10:16:00.002+08:00

Now as I watch each and every music video,

a thousand thoughts ran through my mind.

Every artiste first dream of being there

Every concept is driven by someone whom first imagine it

and then assemble his pictures in mind into the real thing.

Be it the song, the set, the style, the choreography etc.

The power of imagination and dreams.

Many people has forgotten about it.

Money has ruled upon us

Practicality has stomped throughout the world.

Many have given up the action after imaging

Feeling small and hopeless in this practical society

Many have chosen to keep their dreams in a small box.

No.

That's not what I want in life.

Some point in life, I want to look back

to see the crazy risky life I've lived.

And trace the coloured trails back to the present.

Elections

2011-05-08T21:44:00.000+08:00

I am feeling sad for this election

Sad for the people.

Their actions and words.

The nation ought to learn how to control the way they put things across.

Some people just fucked me up totally.

As grown ups, we should understand

and respect different perspectives.

And seriously stop judging anyone and everyone.

Parties and people are suppose to work together.

Stop pushing blame or laugh at people just because they vote otherwise etc

This applies to all, no matter who you're supporting or not.

Karma's always watching don't yall know?

Either way, I'm just disappointed some of many friends are of such calibre.

Seriously, I am disappointed.

On the other hand, I'm really happy about the overall election result, except for the TPL (TPL I'm sorry, I'm sure you're a good person. However, you're a follower, not a leader. You should be replaced by GY who is really a strong pillar of Singapore. - flaws of GRC system. Yet again I don't think PAP is going to listen to us anyway).

As a Gen Y citizen, I always believe PAP has more capacity to lead Singapore as a nation

due to yes, their track record.

However, power needs to be moderated in the govt.

& while saying they can lead Singapore as a nation,

it doesn't mean they are capable of heeding the voices of the people.

We often go unheard of.

Hence, I believe oppositions are needed as 'co-drivers'

Yet again, this 'co-driver' must be capable too.

One must know the rules of driving and learn to take perspective for driver's pov

to determine if he has steered the car too much to the left or right.

Hence, I am happy with the results.

Always remember:

You can don't agree but always respect the choices

& fight if there's a chance and if it's worth the fight. Chances are for those who knows when and how to seize it. (Apply all the time. Heed it. In life, you need it)

2011-05-07T17:48:00.001+08:00

After yesterday's supper, a lot of things have been on my mind.

I realise some people want to be great in front of the person they like

even if it means playing another personality.

Some people are born good people but are never the best looking

or worse, not even near - like me.

Some people want material goods to be envied, to climb up the social ladder.

Hence, we constantly ask ourselves how'd others look at us?

Are they going to judge us?

How will they rate me over 100?

Are they trying to sympathise with me that I look so fail?

Will my partner proudly show me to his friends and family

or hide me behind his/her back?

& since human minds are born scaling to the negative side,

we often end up failing to keep our self esteem high.

We often forgot how to love our soul.

Then we decided to pull ourselves up by

going on a diet, putting on make up, dressing like a whore etc

which is truly upsetting the you within.

Is it right? Is this mindset right?

Today I looked at myself.

I have poor and dried complexion,

dry frizzy hair, bad eye rings,

blue black toes, scars all over my legs and body,

big thighs and a no longer pecs tummy.

& I felt worried for that moment, for my future.

Then I sat back, look into the sky and a smile runs over my face

Because I know,

nobody know best how I turned out this way.

& nobody knows in exchange, I gained such lively and free spirit.

Nobody knows how strong and determine I've become.

Nobody know me best.

& so, I felt a little bit better.

If you are that swallow going about to judge people,

idk. perhaps it's time to take a look into the mirror.

Appearance can be transformed anytime

so long as you're discipline.

But ask now, are you happy? are you being true to yourself?

Whatever you are doing, are you doing for yourself or others or even in attempt to make them see you in a better light? & What for?

The worthy people, you should mingle and keep in life,

are those who treasure no matter how bad or good you look.

The ones who don't treat you better just because you look better today than yesterday.

Now I would use my flaws, to find out who are my real friends and who is not.

Along the way, I'll try my best to transform.

Not for the sake of you. But for the sake of myself and my career.

& those of you who judged me. You will regret.

Strength is flaw, flaw is also strength.

2011-05-06T00:08:00.002+08:00

Hey everybody,

in the heat of this year's election,

let's not forget we still have our mother's day on Sunday ok!

Let's show our love and gratitude to our mums

& definitely leave the sensitive issues aside for that one day

if your family members have different stands.

For the love of our mothers,

CHEERS.

(: I love you mummy.

2011-05-05T00:07:00.001+08:00

Some people are just born blessed.

Hm. Nevermind,

I know what I feel in my heart can le.

One day.

One day ..

2011-05-03T23:44:00.001+08:00

& One day, I definitely find someone who'd appreciate me from the bottom of his heart.

or maybe none at all :3

5 years plan

2011-05-03T22:34:00.003+08:00

It's my 20th year on this planet.

Today, I am here to share a person's 5 years plan.

Nothing to do with politics

Everything to do about a person.

In 5 years time, she'll achieve the following.

1) Get a degree with at least 2nd class upper honour and above.

{This is for the practical world}

2) Twenty five folds the amount of money in her savings

{This is to travel the world and rainy days}

3) Fulfil her path as a performer and trainer

{This is for her world}

4) Get a job that meets her passion

{This is her inner desire}

5) Get a style

{This is to fuck all the people who judged her & definitely for her career}

She has spent her 20 years. Following how life has been planned out for her.

From the kind of education path to what she should do and what she should not.

But no. She's already 20. "It's time for her to plan her own way of life," she said.

Not yet an adult? But definitely at the age mature enough to plan how her future is going to be.

Along this path, she hopes to meet people who will guide her, support her and scold her if her attitude is not right. She will definitely meet obstacles. But that is what precisely define her life and her person. That is definitely what makes her different from others.

Those who care, will watch over her for the next 5 years till she reach her goals (:

2011-04-26T14:42:00.002+08:00

Another semester coming to an end.

Getting to know more and more people

from those I feel like slapping them

to those I feel like kissing them every time I see them.

Bornfire starting soon

Seriously I can't wait for this holiday

It's going to be damn happening!

Can't wait for retreat

Can't wait for all the outings with COR

Can't wait for Vietnam trips

Can't wait for all the spinning sessions

Can't wait for the camps and all.

But now, I can't wait to study all I can

because, I seriously love this semester. :D

I never know I could be so strong

Well, I guess

I proved myself wrong (L)

Live your life while you can, looking back with regrets shouldn't be your future.

2011-04-24T00:35:00.003+08:00

Life itself is really fun.

Just when the girl willingly pass the number

the guy went "puff".

& the girl went "Wtf"

Down goes the pride

Poor girl .

Hey, wait.

I'm not laughing at the girl!

Hahahaha .

2011-04-23T14:34:00.002+08:00

I realised

Time and tide wait for no one

Every strong individual knows how to move on

No matter what kind of set backs they have gone through

Today,

I looked back the various events in my life

The people who were part of it

The reasons things happened etc

And I looked at them today

They are happy people, I would assume

With love, with life

I felt a tinge of happiness for them

Right now I look at myself

I thought of who I want to be

And yes, I want my happiness too.

I will spread my wings,

Run against the wind

towards my dream of becoming an inspiring being and performer

I will become a liberal person

who defines who she is

I will find a love who is able to accompany me

on this journey,

someone who has a dream, a life and the character to make things happen.

I will own this life.

& be happier than any living soul in this whole universe.

That's a promise to myself .

2011-04-17T01:42:00.002+08:00

Happy belated birthday to my Woman

Happy birthday to Kuan Seng

Life's been good.

Fulfilling, freeeeeee

I want to earn a lot of money

I want to go backpacking to many countries like my friends!

They have money now, but I don't

But it's okay . I'll earn enough money one day :D

So I just have to bear with the jealousy for now

Life is just so unfair

But I've learnt to live with it.

I may not have the boyfr, the love I want

I may not have the amount of income and wealth I want

I may not have the look I want

But yknow what?

I HAVE MYSELF

& I FUCKING LOVE MYSELF (:

With that, my life is awesome.

Cheers for those who feel the same.

2011-04-05T13:49:00.003+08:00

The path for a dream

is a path filled with thorns

The path for a dream

is a path of sacrifices

I first sacrificed

my freedom for a man

But now

I sacrificed the man

for my freedom, for my dream

You asked me if it's worth it

I'd say it's only because

my dream worth more than the man

If you ask who's to blame

The blame is on the man

Who did not live up to my worth

& If you ask me do I still love him

I'd tell you the feeling is fading

together with the many chances

I have gave and given up

My friend wrote:

Even if happiness forgets you for a short while, never forget about happiness.

Second day

2011-04-01T15:28:00.002+08:00

It's the second day

Don't worry

I am doing well

Love taught me to be selfless

Now, it shows me to be selfish

The path of thorns.

To bleed for warmth.

But still, I am doing well.

Thank God for that.

At least I know I'm not going to be unhappy in hell again.

I'M SORRY

2011-03-31T11:55:00.002+08:00

We all have this one day.

The day of goodbye.

We live in the world of flaws,

The world of goodbyes.

Goodbye is when reality sets in

The value

The memories

The pain

The tears

Channel into oneself

Rushing through the veins and

Bangs hard on the walls of the heart

But still,

stay strong.

We'll never know if we'd find a pot of gold

at the end of the rainbow tomorrow

Winter always turn to Spring.

2011-03-30T00:30:00.002+08:00

You know,

I'm sick and tired of that fucking nonsense.

One day,

if I'm on the verge of dying or fucking need somebody

You.

Will be the last I'll fucking call.

2011-03-16T23:18:00.002+08:00

MOTHAFUCKERS.

Please be ashamed of yourself.

I do not understand why you bother to get such high education level

Because you all suck very very much.

So what if you have the intelligence and the face

When you don't fucking know what responsibility is

Feels that I'm referring to you?

Having a sense of guilt or a tinge of unhappiness reading this post?

Then go fucking do some self reflection because

even if I'm not referring to you,

it only means you are guilty as charged,

perhaps to another soul.

2011-03-15T00:41:00.003+08:00

I'm blogging, again. FINALLY.

Today, I learnt some things.

1. Body language betrays what one is trying to hide and,

2. When life makes a bad turn, you've just got to be a hardcore rider of hell.

& yknow what.

I hate my Cbox now.

See what I mean by spamzxc? >

& yknow what again,

my flatcast is rotting below.

I'm going to try and revive it! So stay tune :D

When life gives you lemon, make a lemonade.

2011-02-23T17:27:00.002+08:00

I am amazed and mesmerised by people who can sing well.

My soul would be smoothened.

My heart would be at ease.

My mind would picture what the song brings

It's as if I won't have to fear for heartbreaks or pain,

so long as music is around.

They, are just that awesome. (:

Being in the flow

2011-02-04T02:13:00.002+08:00

Somehow or rather,

I can see everything clearly.

Your flaws,

Your cuteness,

Your preferences

& most especially,

Your way of loving me.

I am smiling within.

& gawdd, why's there so much homework to be done? ):

2010-12-14T16:15:00.003+08:00

Dear Readers and Bibi,

I read about something. About the King - the Reader.

The Reader likes to read what they want to read.

I know it's best to write what you wish to read.

But now, I have something to ask you.

Have you ever talk to your love and hope he listens?

Have you ever wish after he listens, he would endorse how you feel even if he might not agree with you?

If he had done so, would you feel closer to him?

Would you feel he cares even though you know he doesn't understand, but still stays over the phone, by your side or wherever he is to listen to you finish your ramblings?

One day, I hope each of us will have a partner like this.

One who listens and whom we listen to.

2010-12-10T10:00:00.002+08:00

Dear blog, sorry I've let you rotting for long.

First of, I'mma name you. Bibi.

Second, I'd like to tell you how my heart works.

I'm a fool. Go around trusting and having faith in people,

thinking they're good people even though they're not.

Even if they're not, they'll eventually change because of my sincerity.

But, how naive is this thought?

I lie to myself,

try to convince myself,

find excuses for people.

In the end?

I feel like a rectum, seriously.

Where people just stuff the shit down.

From now,

I decide not to be so stupid anymore.

I shall choose who I'll be nice to.

And, it's reserved niceness.

Now, my heart shall have a harden mode.

2010-11-11T19:05:00.002+08:00

Sigh,

Somehow, I feel like I am not doing well in school.

Maybe it's time not to prioritise work but life instead. (Y)

2010-11-04T10:45:00.001+08:00

Yknow what's really mind blowing?

It's when you only get a fucking 2hour sleep

because of reality.

& the fucked up thing is,

reality not as in reality itself

but a damnit essay.

Good gracious!

I am so cranky now that I feel like slapping somebody.

2010-11-02T08:07:00.002+08:00

Today, I have german test.

Tomorrow, I have BS test.

Thursday, I have meeting.

Reality due on Thursday.

FML for these 3 days.

Seriously.

& No. My heart doesn't bother anymore :3

2010-10-27T23:10:00.002+08:00

My life.

is busy but dull.

Have no idea.

I ain't feeling happy.

I'm searching an answer for this.

& it's been awhile.

2010-10-25T09:52:00.001+08:00

Wo3 yi4 zhi2 you3 yi4 shuang1 yin3 xing3 de4 chi4 pang3.

& I believe so.

I would go far (:

2010-10-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

Love, I won't trade it for bread.

Never.

2010-10-15T14:52:00.001+08:00

EYESORE.

2010-10-15T08:18:00.004+08:00

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I'm just made a sensitive piece of shit.

A wiseman once said:

"Breathe when you breathe

Walk when you walk

Talk when you talk

Cry when you cry

Die when you die

Let go when you let go"

2010-10-10T03:12:00.002+08:00

Hello world.

Please remind me to face one fact.

"If your boyfr hangs around places like arcades or shopping mall,

he is bound to know girls who wear mascara and doll up like nobody wants them, that's why need attention"

Is it jealousy?

Or because I feel inferior to them?

Or is it because of my past experiences?

Or I don't trust him that much when comes to girls, and that dick?

Or am I just a paranoid shit?

Or is it the girls that I don't trust at all?

Or is it he, whom needs to know such things does not reassure me?

Or simply maybe I'm losing sight of my own life, thinking only for and about others and I got run over by these negative emotions when I feel that all I have ever done is to give and no receive, much as being taken for granted.

I think it's a little bit of all, don't you think so too?

It's time to get my life back.

Dear girls,

You may be more attractive than me for all I care, but you'd never be as beautiful as who I am.

& dear love, I am not going to control your life. Emotions are mine. I'll handle them. And this, it must, be a two way thing.

But one question,

ARE YOU IN LOVE WITH LOVE, OR IN LOVE WITH ME?

2010-10-04T22:40:00.002+08:00

Believe me.

When I say some part of my heart is dying.

& believe me,

Sick hearts DO fine. they do.

& believe me

when I say, today could be the worst day in my relationship life

I hate myself

& it leads me to remember the 'him' that I always find comfort with.

The 'him' that only exists in the realm of memories.

Seriously, I am laughing at myself.

What an idiot I have been.

I need to re-focus. I need to get back myself.

2010-10-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

Somehow or rather,

I am starting to keep things to myself.

again.

I don't know why.

Can't reason out anything.

& I hate myself for that.

2010-09-14T00:44:00.002+08:00

10 to 1 interview.

It's almost too much for my frail heart to take,

but I pulled through it.

Talking about directions, trips, jobscope yada.

Nearly thought they're out to put me in a tight spot.

After which went 'supermarketing' with Bao & Zenghui.

Gonna have feast soon one day :3

& bought pretty much tom yam flavored cup noodles for me to survive this week.

which is going to be total madness.

& yet I'm stuck with all the readings.

"Listen to understand is the key for effective communication."

2010-09-13T01:24:00.002+08:00

Here comes my almost daily buzz again.

{I feel a little guilty bolding that, lol}

I know I left it last minute

buttttttttttt, there isn't a need for you to close the thread before due time right?

): make me miss my first assignment.

How unfair can this get!

Watch the "Xia liang bu zheng, Xia liang wai" earlier.

The song charade segment totally crack mum and me up.

So much so I thought we were going to die laughing.

And,

I wish tomorrow will not be here.

'Cos it'll be the beginning of a dreadful week for me!

But I know my wish is just BS.

Tomorrow will still come. D:

"Lindsay Lohan looks like Lord of the Ring."

everybody. Laugh now. {Haha}

2010-09-11T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hello brain,

Please function at your maximum capacity.

Hello lungs & heart,

You all too.

If not, I'd die of exhaustion due to an overwhelming life. LOL.

"I want you to look so optimistic that even cancer can be cured."

2010-09-05T22:52:00.002+08:00

Erm, seriously.

Somehow, I feel totally uncomfortable with the number of people coming up to say "hey I'm going to pick spinning up".

I know it's wrong to feel this way & it's a free society.

But I wonder,

would these people come forward and pick up spinning if it's not for the spoilers who showed them how awesome spinning is?

I'm overwhelmed with mixed feelings

but definitely proud of spoilers for this.

& it's gonna be like what william has said,

"There are many who would pick it up, but only a few to continue and see it through".

2010-09-01T03:27:00.004+08:00

I teared at a line while watching naruto earlier.

"Just lean on me."

I wish someone would say this to me, one day.

The day when I can throw my troubles away

& put down my bundle.

The day when I can really take a good look at the sky without any worries.

All I have to do is to count on the person to make it right.

Tonight, I'm in the hall all alone.

Ill.

But everything's still fine, just a little lonely.

When the times get badder, the tough gets harder.

2010-08-27T01:20:00.003+08:00

What've am I up to recently?

Busy dealing with sister's EOM and horrible english.
Busy tuitioning but my student failed me with 30/60 for math problem sums.
Busy packing my stuff for hall which I'm done for about 85%.
Busy settling my new Macbook in place.
Busy having awesome moments with spoilers and sec/wushu friends!
Busy doing my part for my district.
Busy sharing last precious ample time with family.
Busy missing somebody whom I'm dying to meet.

& I am going to be even busier with the days to come.
Go for it girl! :D

Many times, we seek our little comfort zones when we meet setbacks.
But it didn't come to us at the point of time that it's robbing alot of things from us.
It's purely an exchange between an escape and life experience.
It's purely about choices.

2010-08-23T01:32:00.000+08:00

Hello insecurity,
are you here to stay for the night?

2010-08-22T02:12:00.002+08:00

Mr Jackass paid a visit tonight.

FUCK YOU VERY MUCH.
screams my brain & my dear.
Can't help but roll my eyes everytime I hear this jerk's name.
Too bad, his arrival came way too sudden.
Suck thumb.

Back from my rage,
yknow. Dear's phone's alarm ringtone is so annoying and horrible as him that it hasn't fail a single time to wake me up. {Giggles}
& one more week,
I'll be setting on my journey to the west!
Please bless me for the gazillionth time I'll be disciplined enough to take care of myself.

I am going to miss home, miss my family & miss my precious. ):
& where's my remedy for severe yog post syndrome?

It's all these little things that make me realise I'm still a human being.

2010-08-19T02:28:00.002+08:00

We can call ourselves

GOSSIP BUNCH.

We had the hottest latest gossips in town today
With all the scandals, different characters, different scenarios
All reminds me of Gossip Girl which I stopped halfway.

That aside,
today's gathering is sorta remedy for our post yog syndrome.
Couldn't get enough, can't we? :D

One week odd later,
I'll be moving into the hall.
I'll be starting school.
I'll be meeting new friends in a whole new environment.
& I ask myself,
Will I change unknowingly?

Either way,
I hope uni life would be a pleasant journey as yog was.
I also hope that Gohonzon, dear, family and friends will stick with me through thick and thin.

NMHRGK.
Paints many beautiful moments in life.

2010-08-17T02:20:00.002+08:00

It's been over for like 2 days.
I haven't had post syndrome for so long before.
I believe that all of us don't mind having trainings for nothing every thursday and saturday till we grow white hairs. Lol.

I really like to thank everyone for the great success
& I think we've definitely path the stage for kosen rufu right across all borders that night.
Thank you & spoilers, I really love you all ttm.
You guys are what this journey is worthed. (:

Seeyou all at post production outing! :D

****************************************

Putting syog aside, for the curtain has called.
I went out with Dear today,
like after so long {having focus on yog instead of him}.

Really appreciates his patience and love for me (:

Had my dress and heels up for him today
& he glared at a guy on bus, who's been staring at me while we alight, till his eyes nearly pop out.
So adorable. Haha

Anyways, flu bugs got me again.
Shits.

Memories are in fact one of the greatest treasures in life & some are eternity. (:

2010-08-11T01:20:00.003+08:00

THREE

more days to opening ceremony.

2010-08-11T01:00:00.002+08:00

HELLO.

Oo, I think my blog is almost dead because of my laziness :D
I feel guilty when I see other ppl's blogs. Hee

Recently, I've been SICK.
Darn it came at an absolutely rubbish time.
Missed training twice & Attica's performance!
Next time you plan to do something, remember to priortize one thing; & the first thing.
DO NOT FALL SICK.

{Laughs}

That aside,
I met my honeybunny todayyyyyyyyy .
Well, I think I can dream of me & him planting plants to fight zombies tonight.
He's not the perfect man you can find,
but aiya! he's awesome in my eyes. :3
ON THE OTHER HAND, me.
I can't stand me.
I can't stand my breakouts. SUPER ANNOYING ):
I feel sad for him to have a girlfriend like me. Baaaaaaah.

Enough said, one last thing.
Do you know that I am Eff'in hungry now?! & oyeah, I'm peeling dry skins :D

{Hello new skins, Goodbye readers!},
xoxo

2010-07-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

Somebody once said:

"You'll bloom one day. So promise me."

No one can tell me this day will never come so -

In the eyes of my family,
In the eyes of my love,
In the eyes of my friends,
In the eyes of my foes,
& in the eyes of the strangers.

I will bloom to be the pillar of strength,
the pillar of faith,
the pillar of trust,
the pillar of spirit,
& the pillar of inspiration.

"What a beautiful stranger." the unknown will exclaim.

2010-06-27T16:38:00.001+08:00

Hello!

It's been MONTHS since I last used blogger.
Honestly, life's really great right now.

Thank God & Bless You. (:

2010-03-07T15:04:00.002+08:00

Ohmygod,

It's been so long since I've blogged.
Been tumblring recently that's why uh.

Finally gotten results.
Finally got my list of victories during my days as a JC student.

I've now got so much to do.
So much to seek.
That 24hr is never enough .
Proud of myself and all of you out there. (:

Things to do:
1) Sign up for bike course
2) Apply uni admission
3) Continue drumming
4) Set up my own business
5) Fix more appointments
6) Get tuition assignments
7) Commit to district, yog and Asd
8) Sign a pre-paid for mom
9) Admin job
10) Stay happy!

2010-02-02T09:20:00.001+08:00

The walk away.

& I will continue walking.
If nobody's here to walk by my side.
Then I'm telling you that I will survive all the falls.
No matter how hard it is.

The darker the night, the nearer the dawn.

2010-01-29T12:53:00.003+08:00

It hurts,

but it's got to be done.
I have nothing else to say,
nothing to ask for anymore.
Nothing for me to feel.

Or rather I chose not to feel since all I get is to feel hurt.

2010-01-23T13:23:00.001+08:00

I think that's what they call by
KARMA.

& I dislike people who count the number of ppl added on their social network
like, what's the big deal?

Aye, aye. Little girls.

2010-01-18T14:40:00.000+08:00

DON'T BOTHER.
Since everything is to be taken away.

2010-01-17T01:55:00.003+08:00

Fucking Places.
Fucking Faces.
Fucking Memories.
Fucking Emotions.

What a fucking waste of time,
The world is a fucking bullshit place to live in.

This is a fucking awesome post.
& I'm fucking proud of myself.
Now, you can never fucking bring me down.

2010-01-17T00:14:00.001+08:00

BAD LUCK.

2009-12-23T19:24:00.000+08:00

Read and laugh.

http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20091222/tap-354-local-versus-foreign-talent-deba-231650b.html

2009-12-17T17:15:00.005+08:00

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2009-11-02T22:28:00.001+08:00

Dudes & babes,

My laptop suffered a fucking crash.
& my songs are all washed.
Will try to piece the mess up after A's.

All the best & miss me [:

2009-08-04T16:47:00.000+08:00

Blog currently in SLEEPING MODE.
Sorry for all inconvenience.

Awaits the giant :D
Few more months !

2009-06-21T01:07:00.003+08:00

F> Interested partners to open own blogshop :D

To set up a blogshop producing our very own design on tees etc. (TBC)

Here's the main qualities to look into:

1. Main designer
- Experienced
- Creative

2. IT savvy personal
- Able to maintain blogs
- Keep constant updates
- Design appealing blogskins

Would like to have those who have a passion for arts and design.
And work as PARTNERS and FRIENDS.
Able to spectaculate the market & nail the latest trend, and break through from it as a team
Would also like those who are able to handle critics & efficient.
Everything's gna start from scratch.
And this will be the headstart of it.

to form a bonded, efficient & creative team.

If interested, please feel free to contact me.
Email your queries & all to:

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2009-06-18T23:08:00.002+08:00

Helloooooooooo !

Keke, this radioblog is born only recently.
Hm , it is still in consideration to Deejay or not.
I'mma see response ba [:

Even if Deejay-ing , it gotta be right after my major exam ,
Aka "A LEVEL" - - ,
Also . I may not make a good Deejay. Inexperience chap.

For now, it'll be random
Any suggestion please feel free to tell me :D
So bear with me in the mean time !